Yes, this is real life...I leave for Africa in 6 days!
So hard to describe how I feel right now.
Nerves, anxiety, excitement, and joy all in the same bundle makes for a very interesting mood.
Every since I found out I was going to Swaziland, I have filled to the brim with excitement. I just couldn't wait to leave. I guess this was because it hadn't really set in that I was going 8,394.9 miles away(yes I calculated it, well a website did). Now that its only a mere 6 days away, truthfully I am nervous more than anything.
People have been telling me that I will do great, and I thank them for having that kind of faith in me, but honestly, I, being a mere human being, will nothing except for that of God. He will be doing great things through me. All credit goes to God and God alone.
I ask you all to do thing: Pray, Pray, and Pray some more. I personally believe that the power of prayer is the strongest way to fight these nerves and the spiritual warfare that is in front of me.
When I think about how nervous I am, I find myself searching for when God was talking to Moses and telling him to go to the pharaoh and tell him to let the Israelites go. I found this story in Exodus 3 and 4
I now understand how Moses felt when God told him to go out and save his people. Just like Moses, God has called me to go! Although I am not going to save people from physical restraints, such as slavery, I am going to save them spiritually. I am also going to save them by helping them learn more about AIDS and how its spread, hoping to save generations by doing this. Like I said earlier, I know that I, nor the other people on my team,will be doing this within ourselves, but God will be using us as painting brushes in the bigger picture He has in store for Swaziland, Africa.
To my mom, if you are reading this, skip the next paragraph.
A question people have been asking me is " What happens if something happens to you?" or "What if you get sick?". My answer to them is oh well. God has a plan for everything and God is in control. Even through this nervousness and anxiety I currently face, I know that no matter what happens to me, it is a win-win situation. If, and only if, God decides to call me home as a result of something that happens on this trip, I will enter in the Kingdom of Heaven with a smile on my face. Although that is very slim that something like that will happen. I am reminded of Paul's word in Philippians 1:21, "For me to live is Christ, to die is gain" For me to live is to do Christ's work, it is all for Christ...to die is gain because I will be spending eternity in Glory...what an awesome thought.
As I end this post, I ask for prayer. Anything that God leads you to pray for, pray it. I would like to ask you to pray for something I saw in the news this week. In Johannesburg, South Africa, cops are being killed and aren't trusted that much. I will be flying into Johannesburg and spending one night there before I fly to Swaziland. Pray that this situation doesn't get any worse and that it will be resolved.
Yall really don't know how much yall's prayer means to me and the team. Please continue it and I thank you from the depths of my heart and soul!
Nerves, anxiety, excitement, and joy all in the same bundle makes for a very interesting mood.
Every since I found out I was going to Swaziland, I have filled to the brim with excitement. I just couldn't wait to leave. I guess this was because it hadn't really set in that I was going 8,394.9 miles away(yes I calculated it, well a website did). Now that its only a mere 6 days away, truthfully I am nervous more than anything.
People have been telling me that I will do great, and I thank them for having that kind of faith in me, but honestly, I, being a mere human being, will nothing except for that of God. He will be doing great things through me. All credit goes to God and God alone.
I ask you all to do thing: Pray, Pray, and Pray some more. I personally believe that the power of prayer is the strongest way to fight these nerves and the spiritual warfare that is in front of me.
When I think about how nervous I am, I find myself searching for when God was talking to Moses and telling him to go to the pharaoh and tell him to let the Israelites go. I found this story in Exodus 3 and 4
I now understand how Moses felt when God told him to go out and save his people. Just like Moses, God has called me to go! Although I am not going to save people from physical restraints, such as slavery, I am going to save them spiritually. I am also going to save them by helping them learn more about AIDS and how its spread, hoping to save generations by doing this. Like I said earlier, I know that I, nor the other people on my team,will be doing this within ourselves, but God will be using us as painting brushes in the bigger picture He has in store for Swaziland, Africa.
To my mom, if you are reading this, skip the next paragraph.
A question people have been asking me is " What happens if something happens to you?" or "What if you get sick?". My answer to them is oh well. God has a plan for everything and God is in control. Even through this nervousness and anxiety I currently face, I know that no matter what happens to me, it is a win-win situation. If, and only if, God decides to call me home as a result of something that happens on this trip, I will enter in the Kingdom of Heaven with a smile on my face. Although that is very slim that something like that will happen. I am reminded of Paul's word in Philippians 1:21, "For me to live is Christ, to die is gain" For me to live is to do Christ's work, it is all for Christ...to die is gain because I will be spending eternity in Glory...what an awesome thought.
As I end this post, I ask for prayer. Anything that God leads you to pray for, pray it. I would like to ask you to pray for something I saw in the news this week. In Johannesburg, South Africa, cops are being killed and aren't trusted that much. I will be flying into Johannesburg and spending one night there before I fly to Swaziland. Pray that this situation doesn't get any worse and that it will be resolved.
Yall really don't know how much yall's prayer means to me and the team. Please continue it and I thank you from the depths of my heart and soul!
Peace, Love, and Swaziland!
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